by Kelley

The Depression Has Come Back.

September 3, 2015 in My Blog

So you guys it has been awhile but I have started college and a bunch of other stuff so I am here to fill you all in.
I was going to go to school for cosmetology and I was super excited about it. Well I got a job at a hair salon and right away I knew it was not for me. I got into a horrible wreck. I hydroplaned and flipped my car for times. I was going 35 mph in a 55 zone. So i got a concussion (more on that in a little bit) so I had to go get an X-Ray. The lady who was doing it started asking me about college and all this and I told her I wasn’t sure as to what I wanted to do so she showed me about how to do an X-Ray and all. Turns out I love it and that is now what I am going to school for. I have started with just basic courses. It is a two year program so I’ll be graduated in 2017. It is some hard work but so far I have had A’s so I hope it stays that way.
The next thing, this when everything turns to crap. Me and my boyfriend of ten months broke up. He was always accusing me of cheating. I have never cheated on anyone and I never will. It is just my morals. He did not let me have any friends and was just super controlling and I was always called HORRIBLE names such as “you are a fucking piece of shit.” “You are the biggest bitch on this planet.” “You are a mental case.” He also did not believe I had my wreck he thought I was lying and I was just getting out of texting him so I could “cheat.” Finally I had enough and on August 10th I broke up with him and since then I have gained all my friends back. Sounds like I should be happy but I am far from it. Here is why: Just two days after we broke up he admitting to cheating on me with like three other girls. Even though he “loved” me. So here is some advice that I have just recently learned: If you are always being accused of cheating in a relationship even though you aren’t, more than likely your significant other is.

So the following week on of my old friends from school came back in contact with me. We started talking just as friends and we made a date. His name is Cody. Well I went over to his house first and we chilled and he asked me out and I said yes. Then we did something if you know what I am trying to get at. The next day he came and picked me up and we went to see a movie and went out to eat. Then Monday he came to my house. Everything was going wonderful or so I thought. Now he will not talk to me at all. I just feel so dirty because I had sex with him so soon. Then he just leaves me like I’m nothing. I thought I was doing the right thing but that obviously was not the case.

The final thing is my granddad. He has and pancreatic and liver cancer for three years now. He started having stomach pains last week. So he went to the cancer doctor and they set up a CT scan for him for yesterday. They got the results back the same day and they have found out that the cancer has spread to all of his lymph nodes.

I am so tired of all the bad like I should be looking on the positive side. I am doing good in school, I do not have to worry about stupid boys, and once something happens to my granddad he will not be hurting anymore. It is just hard to look on the positive side.

by Kelley

Growing Up

June 25, 2015 in My Blog

I always say that Ii will post more but it seems that I always fail to do so. This time my computer got a virus and I had no money to get it fixed so I had to wait until my graduation. But now it is FINALLY fixed now. I have woken up to the realization that I am finally growing up. I’m not fully grown yet but I am starting this whole new chapter in my life. Every mistake that I personally make will always have a consequence and I could possibly live with that for the rest of my life. I am also old enough now to where I make all these life decisions myself. I do not have to turn to my parents for everything anymore. To tell you the honest truth I am not ready for this at all. Ii want to go back to being a little girl without a care in the world because being an adult is already so stressful. I start college on August 17 and I want a job but nobody has called me back and I am falling into depression. I am so scared that this is how my life will be.

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